an aspen belly erupts
shadow-cat
splitting from ear to
ear
hear words unspeakable
a april-slicked kiss
a hip-shudder
i can slice particles
a Poseidon in itself
coat-hangered and silicon
silly words jump,
baby and fruitful
my thighs don't hold each other
in this fearless time
mercury slivers up
and out, grasping our tortured air
a piglet rising
black hair and blue iris
pink tongue, i speak to you,
spider, inside
It is turmoil, what you have put
me through, for the only way to
find peace with your smokescreen
is to replay the reminiscent daydreams
and the cataclysmic hallucinations
for you see, I need reminding
that my efforts were not in vain
and what we had was not some sick
joke you were too much a coward
to let go of
Because I want to scream at you,
to make you understand that this
was not some slip up, but was a
longstanding manipulation where
you trampled me
And I didn't fix it this time. But
I couldn't yell because you looked
so damn sad and pathetic in that
chair. So I felt guilty for giving up,
for saying eno
Insatiable will never mean insatiable again. This is how
I know I've been in love: I am losing
the words to describe it. Insatiable was a word
the heat of your body begged from my hands. Describe
the feeling of being lost in you: insatiable, and every
syllable tastes of sweat, the shape
of every vowel sounds like breathing. Three months later
and I still remember. The night
was so heavy and long and the air
so full of wanting.
I realized I was a whore the day they tugged my hair
and veins opened up like both flowers and talons
expansion & I
love the slope of a neck that is bent back in a way
it should not be, like a long flight of soft stairs.
I am going where I am told I cannot go
for waves
for aggression and cold.
"Something not good" and they all nodded
but I laughed and kissed them all because we were brothers
Someone pinches my shoulder softly, I am a dirty drunk and I guess this makes me sad
because I feel freakishly old and terribly young and I am climbing my body, slipping on wounds
but if i had only one word
it would be
stronger